On being Human

Dark places deep deep inside.....fillet me alive.  For every step into the light there is a half a step into the darkness.  In darkness there is so much to learn and feel....experience it....feel it ooze.  Sitting on the edge of the precipice and feeling so alive.  The fear is so invigorating.  Being a pleasure seeking human can be overrated because in the non-pleasure there is so much truth and isn't that the penultimate?  In truth there is both suffering and freedom.  Freedom to fly but suffering every single inch of the the feeling....feel it.  The end.  The cracks.  The decay.  Mmmmmmmm.  Maybe experience feeling the elation after the desperation lets me fully feel the dark....the dark...the dark.  The cracks begin to show.  The fingertips feel the flow but the soul is so slow to come around.  In the light it is so easy to walk but in the darkness you have to stop and fully consider what will be your guide.  What will be it?  Just step one foot in front of another and trust that darkness can't last forever but in this moment...right now...there is something so good about walking in the darkness.  My mind and the black.  So simple.  Breath...step.  Breath again...step.