Yes and No

To be surrounded by so many wonderful people but to feel so alone.  Feeling alone is sometimes such a wonderful thing.  I sit here, music playing, fire going, having just spent another night with friends and yet still feeling an emptiness that sometimes feel bottomless.  It goes and goes into the abyss of my stomach and soul.  Tomorrow's rest will fill it up again to a workable level, enough gas to get through another short road trip but never enough for that fuel security we all hope and dream for.  Another night...step.  Look back.  Step again.  Baby steps that seem like they take an eternity but eternity is undefinable and insurmountable.  I look forward to the day when eternity does not feel like forever but feels like tomorrow.  Tomorrow will come.  When?  When? Maybe tomorrow, maybe the next day or the next year.  Patience is a virtue for those who look at tomorrow as the next destination.  When the map leads to nowhere patience is unsettling and drastic.  Find the point on the map and go but which direction to go.  Move forward to the unknown.  Step.  Step again.  Maybe the cliche is important tonight...the journey and not the destination is the thing to focus on.  The journey, wherever it goes.